Whimsical Conversation

It is hard to remember sometimes what life used to be before I was living the healthy lifestyle I have been for the past four months. Believe me, I realize how ridiculous this may sound. Four months is not a substantial amount of time. However when trying to look back I find it almost impossible to remember what kind of mindset I must have had to let things get to the point that they did. I was miserable and every day my thoughts were consumed with general feelings of low self worth. All of that is now so foreign to me it is hard to even wrap my mind around it. I wake up every morning excited to work out, excited for the day. Clothing fits better then what feels like ever before.  The most sensational change I have experienced is the feeling of self confidence and overall control of my life. Before I felt almost as a second-class citizen, someone lacking control and discipline that others seemed to effortlessly possess. I had been told all of my life that I would never be like other girls, God had built me differently. What I have learned since is how much bullshit I was being fed, but primarily was feeding myself. Eating right and exercising has completely changed my life. I owe a great deal to my employer for making it so easy to eat healthy and buy exercise equipment, and I also owe an unexplainable amount to my dear friend Shawna. Shawna was the first woman I had ever become acquainted with that was so damned healthy! Not just in the sense that she had a low BMI and can run fifteen miles, but she has the healthiest perspective on life…more than most women twice her age. She inspired me to believe that I could achieve anything a skinny-minny could, that I could transform my life in respect to health and my body just as easily as the next person. With her becoming a constant source of support, I have been able to begin to do just that. What a person can accomplish just by changing their mindset is utterly amazing. I can’t wait to show everyone, but most especially my daughter and myself, just exactly what it is that I am capable of.

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