Jan 24 2009
Where the Party At?
I can’t remember the last time in my life I’ve gone so long without keeping up with any kind of social schedule. Just thinking of it as a “social schedule” makes me shudder. But I guess I’ve never thought of it that way…it is funny how time to be quiet can produce a multitude of epiphanies, because for the past six months I have had my fair share of those.
I’ve always been the girl throwing parties, going to parties, and planning my next BIG party. Maybe not the kind of party most of my peers are now accustomed to, but parties nonetheless. Drinking, talking, maybe having a jam session with guitars and lots and lots of picture taking all were ordinary activities for any gathering of mine. I loved it. Loved the preparation, the anticipation, the sense of pride and accomplishment when I heard about how great of a time everyone had, realized how many people showed up and how the cops weren’t called, and how I laughed through most of it all.
What I can see now is that through the process of constantly jam-packing my weekends with party after next, I was missing something. And no, I’m not going to say Jesus. Get out of my blog if you thought I was! ;)
No, I was missing time for myself. All of that energy for one four to five hour night, and usually a huge mess to clean up alone the next morning just wasn’t worth it. I’ve got so little time to start off with in the first place! And it was not just the parties taking so much of my time, it was the time I would fill up with activities and people I did not entirely enjoy, all for the sake of not being alone. Who wants to be alone on a Saturday night, right? That thought used to terrify me! Strange, because now a night left to myself does not scare me in the least.
I never made a conscience decision to change the way things were, moving back in with my parents helped that process begin. However, I’ve been invited to party after party, bar after bar, and I just have not had the desire to go. Family is always good for keeping a girl grounded! I have spent most of my free nights watching movies I never saw but always wanted to, mainly because I was too busy having, or going to, a party. I’ve been painting, writing, and honestly just planning my whole life. I’ve taken trips, been to concerts, and have more trips and concerts coming up in the near future. It really is amazing how much more enjoyable life is if you take the time to learn what it is you exactly enjoy, and then just do it.
Hmm…there’s a catchy slogan in there somewhere.
